Witness Him Now
As I laid on my bed curled up in a ball I was consumed with sadness, my whole body physically hurting, I thought to myself, " I can just sleep through this." Tears poured down my face and drenched my pillow as I reached for my phone. "Somebody help me! I don't want to feel this way!" I called my friend, seeking godly counsel. I explained how overwhelming the sorrow inside of me was becoming and how "the old Leia", before Jesus, would try my hardest to sleep these fears away. I listened as she read me scripture after scripture, determined to speak truth into the darkness with in me. I then made a choice that would change my life forever... I peeled myself out of my bed, grabbed my pillow and blankly, and got in my car. I drove to my spiritual mothers house and curled up in her bed, still struggling to overcome this emotional pain. Her initial response was, "Get up! Do not give into the enemy." I laid there sobbing, shaking my head and whispered, "No, I just need a hug." She stroked my hair as she wrapped her arms around me. And prayed. She then said to me, "sing". I replied, "I can't sing, my heart is not singing." She told me I can't let the enemies inside of me win. I sat up slowly and began to pray out loud as tears flowed like rain down my face. " Lord, fix me, I'm broken. I don't know what to do. Speak to me please. I am so sorry for not trusting you and allowing this sorrow to consume me. I need you Jesus!". And just like a ton of bricks it hit me and the Lord spoke clearly in my heart.
"Leia Ann, when you are sad or depressed you are dwelling in the past and when you are nervous or anxious you are fearing for the future. I have given you peace in the moment."
Hallelujah! God told me I don't have to be sad or worry!! The Lord has done great things for us and we are filled with JOY!
So now I recognize it when it tries to sneak its ugly head back in and I have a choice. And I choose peace in the moment. What a blessing! You can have peace too. Just crawl up in the arms of Jesus. He holds every tear in his hands. And he has already provided for you what you need. Rest in knowing he is good and he has amazing plans for you today, in this moment.